Acting

I'm usually a pretty good actor. I've never been in plays or anything, but when I'm having a bad day I can turn on the cheery, positive outlook rather quickly. I'll go from midnight to noon day, on the outside atleast.

Well today my acting sucks. I just can't get up the positive energy. Everyone at work knows I'm having a crappy day. They're trying to help, and they are. The one thing about working at BYU, there is no shortage of good people willing to help you out.

And thats good, cause things have been really bad the last few days. I don't even know why. A week ago I was pumped, things were going good. Now the storm has come. I've been wondering if the fight is really worth it.

I went to Idaho this weekend. The old homestead. I love going home, cause I can leave all this crap behind. But this time it followed me. I couldn't shake it. Saw an old friend from high school that I hadn't seen in years, but that didn't exactly help.

It sucks, the wall is breaking down, and I'm not sure I care.

But its good to know the people I work with do. That might be enough for now.

Good bye mohos i'm taking an extended hiatus from all this stuff. I'll still check my email and text for those who have that.

Everybody needs a Buddy

http://www.mormontimes.com/mormon_voices/orson_scott_card/?id=9680
Excellent advice for all our relationships.

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Just a friendly reminder to do your home teaching this month.

Leaning

Love the message of this song. "We all need somebody to lean on."

You know what? SGA is alot like life's other challenges. It gives us a choice; get close to God or take the other route.

Random thought driving home from Logan

Thank Heaven for the 100 Hour Board

A few people have asked what's my story. Alot of that will probably come out in a non sequential manner. Here are links to a question i asked the 100 hour board and an answer.

The Question

The Follow-up

The isolation of trying to live this life alone nearly drove me crazy. I think the isolation was worse than the temptation. Since I've found a community of Saints living life like they should while being in the middle of a temptation that's foreign, strange and feels undeserved. It has been a great support to know I'm not alone.

Well thats all for know. I'm not cryptic by nature, just necessity.