There is still "no going back"

"no going back" The title of a book i read about a young SGA boy in oregon. The idea is there is no going back, once people know.

It's a good warning. I was talking my new roommate tonight, and the subject turned to "gay" not sga. I tried to converse as best i could, make good points, and not show i was very aware of all the issues. At one point the thought came into my head, "ahh, just tell him. This is a great opportunity"

I didn't act. I've thought about telling him, he's a friend, and we have a common friend who is gay. I may tell him.

BUT it will be planned, not just a impulse.

Now you may say, "but the timing was perfect, it'll be awkward to bring it up later"

I actually think the timing would be more awkward to "come out" in a conversation that is non personal and detached. we're discussing it abstract, and suddenly to make it about me woudl be different.

So if i tell him, which is a real possibility, i'll realize there is "no going back" you can't close this door after it's opened. I'll pray about it, and set up a time we can talk. Then I'll act, not be acted up.

Anyway, just some thoughts late at night. Telling people has been great for me, but i want to be wise, and thoughtful about who i tell, because, one thing is for certain, it changes things in the relationship, for good or bad.

 

 

Here is the book

 

v1k0u6: future,

v1k0u6: unknown

v1k0u6: faithful

v1k0u6: strongly likely

v1k0u6: happy

v1k0u6: strong

v1k0u6: i don't know

v1k0u6: alive

v1k0u6: probably

v1k0u6: friends

v1k0u6: please

v1k0u6: hope

v1k0u6: maybe

v1k0u6: bitter

v1k0u6: i sure hope not

v1k0u6: loved

v1k0u6: yes

v1k0u6: lover

v1k0u6: probably not

It does get better

for me through Christ, the atonement, friends, and family. Life is much better. I know that God loves me, Jesus, is my Savior and knows what I am going through, and it is possible to stay faithful to the gospel and church, while dealing with same gender attraction.

BYU-USGA Panel Thoughts

Hey Guys, here are my thoughts on the Panel from last night. I was out in the hall, but i was able to hear most of what was said.

One guy was married to a woman, but he downplayed that as "something that is extremely rare"

one of the others said they were planning on dating their own sex once the graduated and attending church because there are wards that let you do that.

the third was a girl, and i didn't quite follow her plans after byu.

the other was bisexual.

They talked about how they are converted to Jesus and the gospel, but not the church.

The 9th article of faith talks about mysteries. They implied Homosexuality may be one of these truths that will yet be revealed.

they said "don't ask someone who has just come out if they intend to live the gay lifestyle. What's the gay lifestyle even mean?"

I'll tell you what it means. Its romantically pursuing your same gender.

I guess I was frustrated.

The attendance showed just how hungry the BYU campus is for this type of info. I showed up 5 min early and the room had about 400 in it, but another 150 out side, many of whom stayed even tho they couldn't see, and had to stand.

here are some of the things i enjoyed.

seeing so many people interested in the event.

seeing people share experiences that I also had experienced, like being attracted to a friend, and the mortifying realizations that come as you're a kid.

seeing them, accepted, and seeing how they felt better about themselves.

some decent jokes

They were all members of USGA, understanding same gender attraction . a non official group that uses BYU space for its meetings. I heard some people in teh hall saying USGA actually stands for University straight gay alliance.

I found it interesting the group name has SGA, but never once did I hear them use the phrase Same gender attraction. It was always gay. I feel there is a difference.

I am thankful that they held the event. And for those who had the courage to put this on. Very brave to do so.

This is all based on my memories, and impressions. They didn't allow recording, so that's all I can go on.

I wish it would have been more of a faith promoting experience like some of the firesides, like the one held in idaho falls last year. I think BYU students would eat that up. It frustrates me that this is the main view that is presented at BYU.

Watch the Prophet live at 11AM

on BYU.tv. also archived.

My New Creed

I will live my live

I will not be bitter about others marriages or families, I will support them

But I will not let my lack of family keep me from living life.

If a family opportunity comes along I will embrace it



I will start to live my life by developing my writing and photography talents.

Forget selves in service to others. Trials teach us.